For seven years, I’ve prayed, waited, and trusted. Seven years of Mother’s Days that were spent with tear filled eyes. But, God had a plan—He always has a plan—I was just impatient.
Did you know that the number 7 appears over 700 times in the Bible—from Creation to Revelation. The number 7 is a symbol of completion and perfection, exoneration and healing, and the fulfillment of promises and oaths.
You see, even when I was holding fast to my plan for motherhood, God was working His plan. In the 7th year, my brokenness was completed—I could do no more, hope no more, cry no more. But, God’s plan is perfect.
In time, He would exonerate my heart and heal my mind. Infertility is not my fault. I am not broken. Even in the darkness of night, when I begged Him to remove the desire of motherhood from my Heart, He allowed the desire to continue growing—He knew healing was coming.
And, when I gave the pain and longing to Him completely, He revealed His miracle. The fulfillment of His promise was revealed to me in the seventh month of our birth mom’s pregnancy. For seven years, we’d prayed and in the seventh month of pregnancy our promise arrived.
This Mother’s Day is different from the past 7. We’re still waiting, but this waiting is different—instead of hoping this is my last Mother’s Day without a precious little one, I’m waiting on a phone call that says, “It’s time.” I’m praising God for His goodness and blessings and thanking Him that even though I didn’t know where He was taking me 7 years ago, He knew where I’d end up, and that His plan was so much more than I could have ever expected.
“…and the LORD remembered her.” -1 Samuel 1:19
P.S. If you’re a fellow infertility sister, I’d love to hear your story and add you to my prayer list. Infertility is lonely in a world full of babies so, it’s nice knowing you’re not alone.
P.P.S. The Bible calls us to “pray without ceasing” and I am a firm believer in the power of prayer and surrounding our loved ones in prayer. If you’re in a season of waiting, hurt, fear, or suffering, I’d love to pray for you and put your name on my prayer list. You can never have too much prayer or too many people praying!