In life, we all have our own journey. Some journeys cross, some are parallel, and others are intertwined, but each of us has our own. As we travel through, we forget pieces. We remember the whole, the big picture, the outcomes, but there are pieces we forget. Our journey to Baby H is a big one in our lives. It’s one of those defining chapters in our journey. So, I write. I write to remember. Because, though the years are many and they have seemed long, the moments are fleeting and pass quicker with each blink.
So, this has been our journey…
-December 2012…Third abnormal PAP
-January 2013…Laparoscopy revealed abnormalities in reproductive structures. We were encouraged to begin trying to conceive and told not to try longer than 6 months on our own.
–Three and a half years later…
-September 2016…We didn’t listen to that “6-month” timeline and tried, and tried, and tried. We were referred to a Reproductive Endocrinologist by my husband’s doctor.
-October 31, 2016…Halloween, really? Yep, we were told at our first visit that IVF would likely be our only hope of having a baby. You know, the “torturous tubes and obstacle course” they found during the laparoscopy, those were the abnormalities, and apparently, you need those to work to have a baby, lol.
-October 31, 2016…Also on Halloween, my treat was having a hystersonogram (don’t knock the spelling-spell check says it’s unknown and I’m too lazy to Google). Which is another word for not fun!!! And there definitely wasn’t candy!
-November 29, 2016…We decided to “try” an IUI before jumping into IVF. Let’s just say I wasn’t ready to hear “IVF”. IUI Number 1=Big Fat Negative.
-December 2016…Because of Christmas, we missed our chance to do IUI Number 2 and “tried” on our own. Results=nada. No Christmas surprise here!
-January 18, 2017…IUI Number 2=nope didn’t stick.
-February 2017…I was feeling very rushed and pressured to move towards IVF. And I still wasn’t ready. I mean that’s a HUGE decision. So, we decided to take a break. And, by break I mean 14 weeks of acupuncture to my head, face, arms, legs, and stomach 3 days a week! Relaxing=not so much. Did it work for me=still no baby.
-October 2017…Returned for my annual PAP and Woo-hoo I had a normal one!!!
-October 2017…Medicated cycle without IUI=nope, not this month either.
-November 11, 2017…IUI #3=Follicles looked good, lining looked good, but no baby.
-November 2017…Medicated cycle=no baby.
-December 6, 2017…IUI #4=same ol’ same ol’
-December 2017…Medicated cycle because of Christmas=no Christmas present this year either.
-January 8, 2018…My sweet cousin sent me the link for MCRM’s Meet and Greet in Springfield. My MIL attended and I felt like this was where were supposed to be.
-February 2, 2018…First appointment with Dr. Ahlering.
-February 16, 2018…Labs, labs, and more labs. Another fun ultrasound. And, a follow-up with Dr. Ahlering.
-March 6, 2018…Results of my genetic carrier test. Oh, have ya ever heard of homocystinuria? Well, neither had I but if I’m going to be a carrier of something you’d better believe it’s gonna have a funny name and be rare!
-March 7, 2018…Medication class. You know the one where you get to learn how to inject meds into your own stomach on a daily basis! Sounds like a lotta fun, right?
-March 9, 2018…Meds delivered. When they say overnight, they’re not joking around!