I’ve been quiet. I haven’t written a single thought since my last blog post on May 10th. That last blog post was five days before we received the ultimate blessing.
The words have swirled, but I haven’t put pen to paper or rather fingers to the keyboard. Sometimes there are no words—no words great enough, strong enough to express the feelings.
In the darkness He hears our tears when we have no words to make our prayers. But, what about in the light? When we’re so filled with love, gratitude, and thanks that no words are big enough? Where do you even begin? When you’ve prayed and yearned for more than seven years and God comes through bigger than you could’ve ever imagined? How do you put that thanks in words?
But, what if the dark and light are the same? What if there is stillness and quiet in both? What if the tears of grief and hope become tears of joy and thanksgiving?
The same Father who meets us in the valley stands with us as we rejoice on the mountain. When there are only tears in the dark and stillness from peace in the light, He hears you—He sees you. The God who saw Hagar in the desert is the same God who sees you—whether your desert is filled with darkness or light. No matter the season or which way the light switch is flipped—He is always there—seeing you.
“So she called the name of the LORD who spoke to her, “You are a God of seeing,” for she said, “Truly here I have seen him who looks after me.” -Genesis 16:13
And, the “God Who Sees” you in all places is the same “God Who Will Provide.” For 2,615 days, we prayed—He didn’t forget us—He heard us, He saw us, He remembered us. And, when His timing was perfect, He answered, His provision was given.
So, as we step out of 2020 and into 2021 remember that no matter if you feel surrounded by darkness, engulfed in light, or stuck somewhere in the hazy middle God sees you, His plan is working, and His provision will come—even if it takes more than seven years—the provision is always perfectly timed. Keep stepping forward in faith.
P.S. The Bible calls us to “pray without ceasing” and I am a firm believer in the power of prayer and surrounding our loved ones in prayer. Whatever your season, I’d love to pray for you and put your name on my prayer list. You can never have too much prayer or too many people praying!
P.P.S. If you’re a fellow infertility sister, I’d love to hear your story and add you to my prayer list. Infertility is lonely in a world full of babies so, it’s nice knowing you’re not alone.