I woke up early this morning, like all mornings, but this morning I was really hoping to sleep in. You know how that goes, right? The mornings you could sleep in if you wanted to your wide awake at 5:00 am. But, this morning as I laid in bed debating on whether or not to “just get up” I had the message, “And, if not He is still good,” whispered into my soul.
Today is Day 12 of another two-week wait. I’m supposed to wait until Day 14 to test, but I wanted to know because this wait has felt different from the start. Yes, I was hopeful this would be THE month, but somewhere I just had this inkling of a feeling that this wasn’t THE month. It wasn’t a feeling of doubting God’s ability because with it I’ve had a sense of peace. You see, this was not my month to see a positive on that test, but it’s one more month that I’ve moved forward towards my promise. And, He is still good.
We see the promise of our Good Father from the roots of these words. Daniel 3:16-18 talks about when Shadrach, Meshac, and Abednego are being asked by Nebuchadnezzar, “Who is this god who will deliver you out of my hands?” as he was threatening the fiery furnace. The three men did not doubt, they did not weep, they did not beg, but they answered with a peace that one can only have by truly knowing our Good Father. By knowing that even in the bad, the struggle, and the wait He is still good.
“If this be so, our God whom we serve is able to deliver us from the fiery furnace, and he will deliver us out of your hand, O king. But, if not, be it known to you, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the golden image that you have set up.” -Daniel 3:17-18
So, no this wasn’t my month. We’ll keep trying. And, from the fiery furnace of infertility I know I’m not alone because in that furnace Nebuchadnezzar saw four men, not three. Your furnace may not be infertility, but you still may be in a furnace and like the Lord was with Shadrach, Meshac, and Abednego, He is with me and He is with you.
P.S. If you’re a fellow infertility sister, I’d love to hear your story and add you to my prayer list. Infertility is lonely in a world full of babies so, it’s nice knowing you’re not alone.
P.P.S. If you’re in a fiery furnace, I’d love to hear from you and add you to my prayer list, too. Your blessing will come and our Good Father will deliver you from the furnace.